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I've done some thinking. And I've chosen to show the world who I really am, what I really am. For nearly my whole life I've hidden behind a mask, a mask I put on every day to protect myself from the cruelty of the world. And I now will throw the mask into the fire. I have for so long hidden my fears and feelings behind acts of emotionlessness. I have feared that if I were to show too much emotion that I would become something I'm not, something evil or corrupt. I have also hidden my fears. I act as though I am fearless, I have acted as though I have no emotions. I fear what may happen to me when I show who I am. I have acted like I am morally superior. But I am just a self-righteous hypocrite. Am a coward. When face with conflict I fight it or run from it, when faced with what I deserve, I run. I don't accept it, I don't just simply take what's coming to me. I have been afraid to love.
Every day I have put on a mask to hide myself, armor to protect myself from what the world has. But the very armor I thought would help and protect me, has only brought down more weight on what I must carry. I admit that I am a screw up. And I have been trying to hide it and make up for it. Trying to avoid everything that would make me look inferior. I have given in to wrongful desires. I have sinned, I have done it much, and I have thought I can get away with anything. I've acted invincible, but I am mortal, I am human.
I have done so much to hide. I have run from conflict, I have been a coward in being what I am. Human. This may just sound like some guy trying to be humble. But I have brought so much unto myself. A fool tries to carry his burdens on his own. But a wise man will ask his friends to help lighten the load. And I have been a fool. I have tried to appear as a man full of strength, one who doesn't need anyone. But I was wrong.
This is my confession. This is my real face. This is who I am.
As said in batman begins "its not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me." And I confess that I have wanted to be the person I make myself out to be. One of honor, who will never betray his beliefs. I i cannot do that alone. I cannot be a better man by living in solitude. I have tried to do nothing but get by on my own without any help. But I was never so wrong before. I've been a afraid of just being some crack. A crack in the glass castle that is the world, that is life. I could go on. But it would take all your time. I have hidden myself for so long. Now. Now I choose to step out of the shadows. That I step into the light. And let whatever happens happen. To not try and change what is natural.
So this is me. I have chosen to accept it. To accept who I really am. And I hope that you all will as well.
Every day I have put on a mask to hide myself, armor to protect myself from what the world has. But the very armor I thought would help and protect me, has only brought down more weight on what I must carry. I admit that I am a screw up. And I have been trying to hide it and make up for it. Trying to avoid everything that would make me look inferior. I have given in to wrongful desires. I have sinned, I have done it much, and I have thought I can get away with anything. I've acted invincible, but I am mortal, I am human.
I have done so much to hide. I have run from conflict, I have been a coward in being what I am. Human. This may just sound like some guy trying to be humble. But I have brought so much unto myself. A fool tries to carry his burdens on his own. But a wise man will ask his friends to help lighten the load. And I have been a fool. I have tried to appear as a man full of strength, one who doesn't need anyone. But I was wrong.
This is my confession. This is my real face. This is who I am.
As said in batman begins "its not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me." And I confess that I have wanted to be the person I make myself out to be. One of honor, who will never betray his beliefs. I i cannot do that alone. I cannot be a better man by living in solitude. I have tried to do nothing but get by on my own without any help. But I was never so wrong before. I've been a afraid of just being some crack. A crack in the glass castle that is the world, that is life. I could go on. But it would take all your time. I have hidden myself for so long. Now. Now I choose to step out of the shadows. That I step into the light. And let whatever happens happen. To not try and change what is natural.
So this is me. I have chosen to accept it. To accept who I really am. And I hope that you all will as well.
ask him. In just a grunt in the workings of Hazardous.
